So, personal stuff again.
As a little background story for what I´m gonna ask you guys, just a little information.
As some of you may know I have been fighting depression for more years than I know,
as I don´t remember life ever being different for me. I have always been a moody outsider,
sad to be lonely, yet amazingly happy not having to deal with people. I had a great childhood,
no friends at all, but lovely and caring parents and one amazing house to live in.
I never had to work hard for anything. I was clever, went to the highest rank of German
high schools and passed without studying. I got a job without even searching for it, and without
studying a thing again I passed and now am a graphic designer. Soon I will finally move out,
which I wanted to do for such a long time, too. So, yeah, great. Now I am living my dream,
slowly becoming a tattoo artist, currently helping out at a studio far from home.
Now there´s just one thing - I don´t feel it. Nothing worth living for. Not even my dream job
can motivate me, it´s like this life will continue as dull as ever. I don´t go out anymore,
I want to, but every time I actually do the only thing I think about is coming home again,
getting lost in comic books or tv shows about different lifes.
I am actually starting to lose faith in the world, like it actually is as dull and sad as it seems
in my head. There´s just no motivation to live, but neither is there any reason to die.
So I figured I´d ask you guys - what are your motivations in life?
What makes you happy, what keeps you going?
Thanks a lot